Well, we're still here. We've surviving...

Oh.

Why, you ask?

Today is the 8 month anniversary of Ainsley's diagnosis of Type 1 Diabetes. 8 months have dulled the pain of knowing my baby has a chronic disease... But, dull or not, the pain's still there. I suppose it always will be.

I think the real kicker here is... I wouldn't have even realized it was 8 months today. Honestly. But, I'm up waiting to see where her blood sugar goes after treating a low and came online to double check with my "Diabetes Mentor" if you will, that I was handling it properly.

See, Ainsley was being a monkey and crawling all over me. So, I said, "Hey Bit. Why don't you go crawl up in bed and Mama'll watch some TV with you?"

She scurried off (little TV addict!). I finished up what I was doing and walked into the room... And there she was, sound asleep in her toddler bed. She NEVER goes to sleep so early... Let alone with out many choruses of "Night-night!" and much sugar from Mama and Daddy.

So, out comes the trusty meter. She's at 74, which is too low for her to sleep on. Plus, after checking her pump, I see that she still has IOB (insulin on board). That means that she still has insulin in her that hasn't completely kicked in, so she'll go lower still. Lovely.

So, I go and get a juice box because she can drink from a straw while she sleeps. If you don't know a "D" kid, lemme tell you... There's just something heartbreaking about watching them drink in their sleep to live. It's just... Wrong. :( But, I don't get that jolt tonight because she's unwilling to drink. I finally managed to squirt about a third of the Juicy Juice into her mouth (another quarter of it down the sleeve of her nightgown). 15 minutes later, she's at 108.

Now, I'm just killing time to test again at the 30 minute mark to see if I need to FORCE her awake to drink the rest. And.. Happy Anniversary.

A friend, another D parents told me I shouldn't be sad. I should celebrate. Because we are LIVING with diabetes rather than the alternative. So...

Yay.

I guess.